Oh my goodness..
Scream and shout, at the tippity top of my voice..............................................................
No I wont, because I don't want to wake any one up.
Boys sound asleep, Dogs too...
Me with my self.. learning how much more learning I still need to do.
These past few weeks have been rough on me, emotionally, my parenting is being pushed beyond measures I ever wanted..
I am tested and tested time, and time again....seems like I am losing every battle. Will I ever win? Who knows, but I do know it's going to get better, I have job to do.
I just wish it was easier.
it's really a tough battle cry.
Beyond all that.. I will be bald soon.
Oh how do I feel about that? It's time.. it really is time. It's time to say goodbye to pain, hurt, anger, resentment, fear... and symbolically watch, it grow, heal, shape, regrow, get stronger, change.. ( just like he did, just like he does)
It's just time.
I am not sure how it's going to feel having people question, stare, and wonder, but not ask...
NO!!!!!!!!!! I am not crazy, I did this for charity, so someday there can be a cure, so other mothers don't have to stand up and make noise for our children. I might be a small member of something really big though.. and I started with a goal, got over it, and will follow through... do what I say, a lesson my boys learn.. If Mommy says she's going to do something, she does it...
Who knows what the next five years bring with these little men.. who knows how much gray hair I have that will finally start growing.. but, I do know one thing for sure...
the person inside me now is different than the person I was five years ago..
( Rant over)
