This was a great Halloween for the kiddos, they had so much fun running around and being free spirits with our closest friends.. I really know we are blessed to have a great group of people we call our freinds... they are special to our family and can't wait to share many more! much love to you guys!
Monday, October 31, 2011
Halloween 2011
This was a great Halloween for the kiddos, they had so much fun running around and being free spirits with our closest friends.. I really know we are blessed to have a great group of people we call our freinds... they are special to our family and can't wait to share many more! much love to you guys!
Friday, October 28, 2011
Stay Still
Something magical happens when you become a mother, for me I remember waiting after giving birth to the twins to just see them and hold them for the first time, for the days the twins were born were pretty amazing, but not what I had scripted in my mind as the day of child birth, on a personal level.
But after the moment has come and gone, that something magical has already happened... after that first gaze into their tiny eyes.. 
What a great journey this has been for me, and every so often things happen and I am soooooo reminded of this amazing gift.
Seeing them laugh, run, explore, touch, talk, discuss, cry ( throw some sort of fit) torment the new puppy and love him at the same time.. all these moments are magical.
Mother nature gives us the gift of amazing weather on a fall day to explore, I think everyone can relate, throw in a beautiful park with so many fall colors and leaves (DAMN I FORGOT THEIR LEAVES) to explore, days like this , getting just to forget about everything else and be a child with your kids, be together and Still, NO distractions, NO chill, just a bunch of ladybugs, dirt trails with a couple of four year old imaginations and I swear you have a simple sort of magic! With amazing things to photograph... These are special days, everyday... WE live we live, we live.. it's soooooo often we forget to stay still~
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Something about being sick
There is something fascinating about being sick, the world doesn't stop around you...
the kids still run a muck and need you, mother nature doesn't stop changing the weather, the world around you just continues.. but you somehow are stuck.
It seems like every time I get sick, I feel soooooooooooo defeated, so gross, so worn out! I have slept more the past three days then I have in months.. yet somehow I Don't feel refreshed, I feel groggy and confused.
It's like my brain is working but at a very slow speed... I am anxious to try anything to help boost my horrible immune system.
I Think sometimes being a mother has given me super powers, I still manage to get up, clean, do what needs to be done, play with the kids, hug on the man, and still feel put together wearing a mask.
The puppy is getting his exercise and potty time, the boys are getting mommy time, and even managing to help take care of me...
this shows me the most enlightening thing.. My children are amazing, when mom is down and out, they somehow know to lift my spirit... "Daddy we have to get Mommy medicine, she needs to feel better"
"Mommy, I love you, here's a hug... it makes me better"
and you know what folks? It works.. the magic of seeing them be amazing souls has some how lifted me to feeling better, my head is not pounding, my muscles are sore as shit, but I feel peaceful.. I feel special, lucky.. LOVED!
This is the magic of parenthood, of doing whatever it takes, at no matter what costs... and today I see the rewards of that from two amazing four year old boys!
Who are in need of a hair cut... ahhhhhhhhhhh the work never stops, but these faces make it all worth it!
the kids still run a muck and need you, mother nature doesn't stop changing the weather, the world around you just continues.. but you somehow are stuck.
It seems like every time I get sick, I feel soooooooooooo defeated, so gross, so worn out! I have slept more the past three days then I have in months.. yet somehow I Don't feel refreshed, I feel groggy and confused.
It's like my brain is working but at a very slow speed... I am anxious to try anything to help boost my horrible immune system.
I Think sometimes being a mother has given me super powers, I still manage to get up, clean, do what needs to be done, play with the kids, hug on the man, and still feel put together wearing a mask.
The puppy is getting his exercise and potty time, the boys are getting mommy time, and even managing to help take care of me...
this shows me the most enlightening thing.. My children are amazing, when mom is down and out, they somehow know to lift my spirit... "Daddy we have to get Mommy medicine, she needs to feel better"
"Mommy, I love you, here's a hug... it makes me better"
and you know what folks? It works.. the magic of seeing them be amazing souls has some how lifted me to feeling better, my head is not pounding, my muscles are sore as shit, but I feel peaceful.. I feel special, lucky.. LOVED!
This is the magic of parenthood, of doing whatever it takes, at no matter what costs... and today I see the rewards of that from two amazing four year old boys!
Who are in need of a hair cut... ahhhhhhhhhhh the work never stops, but these faces make it all worth it!
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Unschool
You look lost," the bird said.
"I don't think so. I mean, I'm not sure if I'm lost," the boy replied. "I really
hadn't thought about it."
... "Hadn't thought about it?" said the bird. "You must have some idea of where
you're going, yes?"
"Well... I've been following the path. It seems as if many people have taken it
before me, and a very helpful cat guided me back to the path when I started to
wander."
The crickets fell silent as the bird asked,
"But where do YOU want to be going?"
"I'm not sure," said the boy as he looked around at the dark, tangled swamp,
"but I do know that THIS isn't where I want to be. I guess I AM lost."
The bird said, "Ask yourself where it is you want to go, and then follow the
signs you already know."
*** I sure hope I have the power, the will and the way to keep my boys right where they belong.. free from other peoples agendas!****
"I don't think so. I mean, I'm not sure if I'm lost," the boy replied. "I really
hadn't thought about it."
... "Hadn't thought about it?" said the bird. "You must have some idea of where
you're going, yes?"
"Well... I've been following the path. It seems as if many people have taken it
before me, and a very helpful cat guided me back to the path when I started to
wander."
The crickets fell silent as the bird asked,
"But where do YOU want to be going?"
"I'm not sure," said the boy as he looked around at the dark, tangled swamp,
"but I do know that THIS isn't where I want to be. I guess I AM lost."
The bird said, "Ask yourself where it is you want to go, and then follow the
signs you already know."
*** I sure hope I have the power, the will and the way to keep my boys right where they belong.. free from other peoples agendas!****
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Ode to Saki
Saki...
the meanest bitch in town
nobody should make her frown
when she's happy, she still stinks...
when you cross her, you better watch out, her toothless smile will make you shout.
Her breath has been known to clear a room, her bite will seal your doom!
Saki...
she has been with me for nine years,
her cute gizmo day's have disappeared
I know I will miss her when her day comes
the kids they wont notice, for she always jumps out of their way...
Saki...
takes her years to warm up to some, melted my heart on day one.
Saki, Sakajoe, Sakaow...
I love you so!
Saturday, October 15, 2011
batteries....
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| Dad and his boys... |
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| Dylan, sporting the face. |
Today we set upon a journey to the amazing Brown County State Park, the fall season is at it's peak, the weather was amazing, the kids dressed to impress, Dad lookin smooth, me, um not so much.The kids however were soooooo ready to be there, and they weren't even sure where there was, but in the back seat the evidence of "are we there yet?" are we there yet, was in full effect. I swear until today, I thought that only happened in movies and cartoons...
but once they were cut loose to explore the trails and leaves, all the laughter began!
The only real "suck it" moment, Not checkin the batteries in the camera... no bueno! I did my best with what I had to work with... and the boys, well they were Picture perfect.
So here is to a wonderful fall... take one!
Meaning next time We go, I wont forget to check the fuckin batteries...
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| Brotherly love |
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| Say what? |
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| My models.. |
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| Just momma and her boys... |
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| Good Night Indy.. |
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Get Money Out
My Michael is a true fan of Dylan Ratigan, way back when he was on fast money and even the early morning show on CNBC, before landing his own show on MSNBC, and not to mention I think he's swell too, so, with the whole uproar lately in politics, I have finally found something worth petitioning and sharing! Read the site, it's definitely worth the signature!!!
It is past time to get money out of politics. For far too long special interest and back door politics have put corporations ahead of people. How can our democracy work for the people when corporations decide who runs and who wins?
I just joined a campaign to get money out of our political system. Please join me by adding your name now:
We've talked about how harmful money is to our democracy - this is a meaningful way to do something about it.
I know many people, our family included who have been struggling with enemployement, under employment, and all around the lack of money... we are the new members of the lower middle class, some even Poor... but the rich they don't give a fuck about us.. and the sad thing is, they are who I really feel are running this land of the free...
blech~
Sunday, October 9, 2011
The Joys of a Puppy, and gettin one year older.. sigh
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| Buddy vs Aligator. |
Buddy,is what we decided to name him, he is soooo smart, almost too smart for his own good already, so, for that reason he fits right in.. and let me not forget the whole momma boy factor..
He is, yup a mommas boy! He was exactly what we all needed, and fingers crossed, he works out better than our last few fiasco... fur realz... so along came Buddy!
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| Dylan and Buddy |
I just remind myself that I have the power and will to make a change, and do things the best way I know how, and sometimes that way sucks ass, but I manage to pull through and get the job done...
And today, I am another year older... I feel like I finally get why I love Buddhism, really, why don't we celebrate our lives everyday? Why just one day out of the year is it necessary for people to say "HAPPY BIRTHDAY< YOU ROCK?" I mean really, don't I rock 365 days of the year.. I say so~
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| mommas boy what? |
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| LOVE! |
I have been spending all this time eliminating distractions from my life, and trying so hard to find a center of peace to bring us all together..and the answer was always right here, be your self.. smile, take it easy on yourself.. it's ok to make mistakes...
LIVE AND LEARN~~~
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Fairy Tales for Busy Parents...
The Little Boy Who Cried Wolf
If you lie wolves will eat you. No one will care because you are a dirty liar.
Cinderella
If you are mean to your children they might torture you and marry a stranger. Go to school so you wont have to marry the first asshole that brings you a shoe.
The Three Little Pigs
If you do a job half ass and you're not prepared wolves will eat you.
Goldie Locks and the 3 Bears
If you break into people's houses, it doesn't matter how cute you are bears will eat you (even scarier since bear has come to mean large hairy men).
Little Red Riding Hood
Don't talk to strangers or wolves will eat your grandma.
Sleeping Beauty
If you do your own thing eventually a great man will find you. You will have to hang out with some goofy people for a while. You need plenty of rest. If a stranger kisses you in your sleep you punch them in the throat.
The Ugly Duckling
The hottest ducks go through awkward stages so don't worry about it. Also be nice to everyone because you never know who you will want to get with later.
Beauty and the Beast
When talking to boys- If you're a hairy beast you better have a fucking castle and not be an asshole.
When talking to girls- Be nice to the beast they might be a good person with a fucking castle!
If you lie wolves will eat you. No one will care because you are a dirty liar.
Cinderella
If you are mean to your children they might torture you and marry a stranger. Go to school so you wont have to marry the first asshole that brings you a shoe.
The Three Little Pigs
If you do a job half ass and you're not prepared wolves will eat you.
Goldie Locks and the 3 Bears
If you break into people's houses, it doesn't matter how cute you are bears will eat you (even scarier since bear has come to mean large hairy men).
Little Red Riding Hood
Don't talk to strangers or wolves will eat your grandma.
Sleeping Beauty
If you do your own thing eventually a great man will find you. You will have to hang out with some goofy people for a while. You need plenty of rest. If a stranger kisses you in your sleep you punch them in the throat.
The Ugly Duckling
The hottest ducks go through awkward stages so don't worry about it. Also be nice to everyone because you never know who you will want to get with later.
Beauty and the Beast
When talking to boys- If you're a hairy beast you better have a fucking castle and not be an asshole.
When talking to girls- Be nice to the beast they might be a good person with a fucking castle!
Thursday, October 6, 2011
and then it hits me....
So after ditching the whole social networking thing... I have finally had some moments to clear my head and come to the conclusion of a few things...
I sure hope your ready to read this.. I am not PERFECT.. I thought I was going to discover that I am this amazing mom, awesome friend, kick ass witty bitch, a woman with a purpose... and lately all I feel is ummm unperfect.
I know it's too much to ask, no one is after all perfect.. but somehow being a part of the social network scene, made me feel important.. but then i realize it was just my narcasitic side... which is ugly.
I found it to be the secret key to the inside of the real "where are they now?"
Learning that not everyone turned out to be this and that.. and even my expectations to reunite with old dear friends just falled short of not gonna happen.
It also dawned on me that not everyone really gives a ratt ass about what I think or feel about hair feathers, music, what i do with my kiddos...
and those who do, know my phone number..
and call me ( some more than others) but none the less they haven't forgotten how to use the phone.
What erks me, is this...
why does every flippin piece of media revolve around Facebook?
Find us on facebook...
do this on facebook, to that.. sell your soul to the monster that is Facebook.
Truth be told, I Have seen facebook destroy so many relationships, have it become a bridge and tool for others to use to seek and destroy, spy and lie.... create fantasies and all the above..
for me, I just discovered that one distraction I didn't need was a alternate to reality... one which has always let me down..
so kiss my ass facebook.. and
have a nice life, without a inside scoop of what is going on in mine....
I sure hope your ready to read this.. I am not PERFECT.. I thought I was going to discover that I am this amazing mom, awesome friend, kick ass witty bitch, a woman with a purpose... and lately all I feel is ummm unperfect.
I know it's too much to ask, no one is after all perfect.. but somehow being a part of the social network scene, made me feel important.. but then i realize it was just my narcasitic side... which is ugly.
I found it to be the secret key to the inside of the real "where are they now?"
Learning that not everyone turned out to be this and that.. and even my expectations to reunite with old dear friends just falled short of not gonna happen.
It also dawned on me that not everyone really gives a ratt ass about what I think or feel about hair feathers, music, what i do with my kiddos...
and those who do, know my phone number..
and call me ( some more than others) but none the less they haven't forgotten how to use the phone.
What erks me, is this...
why does every flippin piece of media revolve around Facebook?
Find us on facebook...
do this on facebook, to that.. sell your soul to the monster that is Facebook.
Truth be told, I Have seen facebook destroy so many relationships, have it become a bridge and tool for others to use to seek and destroy, spy and lie.... create fantasies and all the above..
for me, I just discovered that one distraction I didn't need was a alternate to reality... one which has always let me down..
so kiss my ass facebook.. and
have a nice life, without a inside scoop of what is going on in mine....
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