awakening

This little boy is my Hero! My amazing son, Graham,  He was so proud of himself, He walked his survivor lap with his juice box in one hand and his metal in the other, he was beaming, giving people High fives, and HOPE! I heard a few people tell me this weekned that they didn't envy me, and nor should they.  I met a complete stranger who told me that I shouldn't stop speaking, and sharing our story, and that I was a decent public speaker, as I stood with my son by my side and he did nothing but be himself, and as if he was possessed by a power greater than himself, after telling our story, I picked him up and he yells into the microphone, "I am a survivor!"  Needless to say, I think most people cried!  I needed to participate in this Relay for Life event this year, because it's been three years since Graham's diagnosis, and I had a lot of healing to do.  I needed to let a lot out, and let it go.. I did that night... Here a just a couple of shots of the lit lumineers.... I still tear up thinking bout it.  We had about 15 for Graham.. and that touched my heart!

Over 2000 bags lit in honor of those who have survived and those we have loss to CANCER!



I may never understand why us, , why my son, why your mom, or your aunt or your best friend, husband, child, wife, cousin whomever we may know... I don't think I am suppose to.  I learned this weekend, that I can find strength in myself, and strangers ... and  Friends show up when you need them most!

It does stink.. but, it doesn't stop!

Things they say

she said she was, "fed up, done, over it".. that she needed to "Find the strength to let him go"...
but,she hasn't. 

he told me,"you missed the boat on that one"

she says,"your my best friend"

he say's,"I love you"

"please", "thank you"

"ha, you're amazing"

"you're such a strong woman"

"only you understand me"

these are just a few of the things I have heard lately..
I wonder thou, sometimes when people share thoughts, and fears and emotions.. what they are looking for in return?
I wonder, are we just all waiting for the puzzle piece that fits us just so?
To know that finally we are not alone in are thinking? For me,most of the time my thinking is sooooo off, when someone clicks with me, I almost instantly catch myself wanting to do back flips because, they get it!!
What is IT? well it's me!
I don't need a translator.
I totally feel the whole, if you;re not with me you are against me, because in my life it has always been so true.
this is going nowhere..
I just wanted to find out from people, do you get excited when you find people who get it?
Get you?
I do!