Truth be told, This is the fifth time I have tried to write this post, every time I have gotten close to being done, the boys erase it... so here goes my last attempt.
My ode to 2010 and welcome to 2011...
I am making a list of things that are not going to be in my life this new year, and hope that inside me I find the strength and will to follow thru, and not back down.
1) I am totally ridding all toxic energy from my life.. so if your a person and you cause harm, drama, or annoy me or my family ( poof your gone)
2) Toxic food...this is going to be the toughest on me... I eat poorly.. I am not over weight but, I doubt my arteries are liking what I am doing to them.... I know that eating better will in turn enrich my kids, because they might actually see.. "woah this stuff isn't too bad"
3) this year 1/19 will mark my fourth year of the family and Retinoblastoma... so I think it's time I find some peace. We have been blessed since 2/24/08 with out any more tumors and Dylan has not been affected at all. So, I think that Letting it go will help me move forward in a lot of avenues. I have found a therapist who is willing to work with me, so this adventure should be interesting.. to say the least.
4) I am going to love harder, play harder, read more , laugh more and maybe even relax a little bit more.. if at all possible. I will begin my parenting with a kinder and gentler approach to parenting. I hope that the abuse both their father and I endured in our lifetime and our parents in theirs will be put to end . I believe the cycle ends here with our choices.
and that's just it...
2011 bring it.. the good, the bad, the trying.. all of it. I know that I have been thru a lot over the past four years.. and short of going crazy, I think my mantra.. " yo, you got this "... will get me through another year.
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