where have I been?

 four years ago today, I heard the most horrible words ever spoken...
your son has cancer, most know what that entailed for me, and this isn't about that...
I have to say, looking at where we all are today, makes all that hurt and broken mend...
My kid is amazing, he actually had a moment today where he stopped everything he was doing and ran up to me and said, " Mom your amazing, I want to give you a smooch", and he did.
I realized at that moment, like so many others, he was right. I am!
and so is he.. and humble, I don't think he realized how much I needed that!
I told myself this year, I wont cry, this year I am doing something different.. three days from now marks the day we kick cancer's ass out of his eye, by removing his eye, and rather than sit and feel angry and sad, I am going to laugh with the boys!
we are going to celebrate this day, from now on! It changed me, and in alot of ways it made me the woman I am today!
 I have not treated him any different, for that I am proud! His twin brother is not only his best friend but has stood by him thru every appointment, he helps clean his eye, he cheers him on.. so reality is, I am pretty darn lucky to have given birth to two of the most amazing little boys on the planet!

The Best!

I know, every mom says that, but I really feel that!
So four YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It does get easier, and the moments it sucks, I look back at how far we've come~

ROck Stars.. yup that's what we are!